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Monday, November 3, 2008

How can I not love you

You know what sad about love? It’s when you happen to know that there’s just no hope for you being together yet you still pray to make it work... Its when your mind says let it go but your heart says hold on…and most of all, its when no matter how you try to forget him /her you just can’t… because of the fact that you still love him/her and you just don’t know why?...try love someone that you’ve loved before and you’ll realize that it will either lead to the same thing that happened before…or something better… Not hard, isn’t it? But why not try to loving someone who never loves you back? It’s either you see yourself giving up or dying daily…

If you love and get hurt, love more, if you love more and get hurt more, love even more... If you love even more and get hurt even more, love some more until it hurts no more... The gauge of how much you really treasure something or someone is not how happy you are with them... But how sad you are when you lose them...one grows distant to one another it’s not because of indifference but because of fear. There’s the fear that hurt gets greater when one gets closer... Recognition of tendency to fall deeply, and consequently drown in a quicksand of stupid irrationalities. Sometimes, what drives one way is not the absence of emotion but the overwhelming presence of it. Falling in love is never a decision, it’s always a chance….staying in love is not a chance but always by choice...and falling out of love is never a choice, always a decision. Attraction comes to us by a chance. But true love that last is truly a choice. Listen: fates bring you together, but its all up to you to make it happen… we may meet someone by a chance... But loving and staying with that someone is still a choice...

Just because my eyes don’t have tears, it doesn’t mean my heart don’t cry…just because you always see me strong... its doesn’t mean there’s nothing wrong…sometimes I chose to pretend that I’m happy so that I don’t have to explain to people who would never ever understand…smiling is always easier thank explaining to all why I’m sad. It’s never the teas the measure the pain... Sometimes the smile that we fake. A person who truly loves you is the one who sees the pain in your eyes…while everyone still believes the smile on your face. The person you love the most has the capacity to make you the happiest person in the world and may give you the worst heartache that you could imagine…time can heal the wounds but it can never get back what we once had and lost... time can’t tell us how or when we will move on after all was said and done.. Because God give us time but we never valued this gift He had given to us. So learn to treasure the one you love you now. Because when they go... there won’t be time to have them back…

In life I have done every way of fighting… Heard every painful truth… been every heartbreaking scene and felt every dreadful feelings. I thought that going through it all will then I realize that I have to stop the fight and at least save a little for myself… but you know what’s funny? It’s when I seem so much tired of it all, but still I just can’t quit no matter how hard it is and I have to continue hoping that one day…I’ll be able to find someone who could love me not just “right” but “real”. Love is like giving someone a gun…having then point it at your heart…and trusting them not to pull the trigger... I don’t know why all of us hang to something, we know we better letting go... it’s like we scared to lose what we really don’t have…some of us say we’d rather had that something than absolutely nothing…but the truth is: to have it halfway is harder than not having it all…I want to know someone who can ease the pain that I have. Who could hold me tight…the one who will never let me go…till every drop of tears that I have had fallen... till every strength that I have already passed out. Then I can no longer move… As he lay down in my bed, sing me lullaby till I fall asleep and whisper beside me…”I will never leave you, angel of mine.”

“Time may keep us away… space may keep us apart… rumors and hurts may break us down.. Yet no matter where life leads us…I’ll always be here and I will never stop caring.”

Saturday, October 25, 2008

what I learned in Life

I've learned -
that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I've learned-
that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned-
that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned-
that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned-
that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned-
that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do.

I've learned-
that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned-
that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned-
that you can keep going long after you can't.

I've learned-
that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned-
that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned-
that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades
and there had better be something else to take its place.

I've learned-
that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I've learned-
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned-
that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned-
that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down
will be the ones to help you get back up.

I've learned-
that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned-
that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I've learned-
that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned-
that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I've learned-
that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.

I've learned-
that your family won't always be there for you. It may seem funny, how people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't always biological.

I've learned-
that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned-
that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you are to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned-
that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned-
that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned-
that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned-
that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change
.

I've learned-
that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I've learned-
that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I've learned-
that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.

I've learned-
that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I've learned-
that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I've learned-
that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I've learned-
that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I've learned-
that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe
.


Thursday, September 25, 2008

Thre's Hope - India Arie

[Verse 1:]
back When I Had A Little
i Thought That I Needed A Lot
a Little Was Over Rated,
but A Lot Was A Little Too Complicated
you See-Zero Didn't Satisfy Me
a Million Didn't Make Me Happy
that's When I Learned A Lesson
that It's All About Your Perception
hey-Are You A Papa Or A Superstar
so You Act, So You Feel, So You Are
it Ain't About The Size Of Your Car
it's About The Size Of The Faith In Your Heart

[Chorus:]
there's Hope
it Doesn't Cost A Thing To Smile
you Don't Have To Pay To Laugh
you Better Thank God For That
[Repeat]

there's Hope

[Verse 2:]
off In The Back Country Of Brazil
a Met A Young Brotha That Made Me Feel
that I Could Accomplish Anything.
you See Just Like Me He Wanted To Sing
he Had No Windows And No Doors
he Lived A Simple Life And Was Extremely Poor
on Top Of All Of That He Had No Eye Sight,
but That Didn't Keep Him From Seein' The Light
he Said, What's It Like In The Usa,
and All I Did Was Complain
he Said-Livin' Here Is Paridise
he Taught Me Paridise Is In Your Mind
you Know That
From http://6lyrics.com

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]
every Time I Turn On The T.V. (There's Hope)
somebody's Acting Crazy (There's Hope)
if You Let It, It Will Drive You Crazy (There's Hope)
but I'm Takin' Back My Power Today (There's Hope)
gas Prices They Just Keep On Rising (There's Hope)
the Government They Keep On Lying
but We Gotta Keep On Surviving
keep Living Our Truth And Do The Best We Can Do

[Chorus]

stand Up For Your Rights [Echo]
keep Shining Your Light [Echo]
and Show The World Your Smile [Echo]

[Chorus]

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

If a MAN wants you

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that’s not meant to be.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve

then heck no, you can’t "be friends."

A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.

Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don’t stay because you think "it will get better." You’ll be mad at yourself

a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.

He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant,

Why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man’s behavior. Change comes from within.

Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has

more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.

He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else’s man.

Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you.

All men are not dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...There is nothing cute about


Monday, September 15, 2008

ALways be my baby - David Cook

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be a part of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

Thursday, September 11, 2008

ALONE AGAIN AND FREE / KATHE GREEN

Here I am
Alone again and free
Yet everyone in town wants to go out with me
But there is no one there
That i would like to see
I'm home again and free.

Here I am
alone again and free
Waiting for a special man to call on me
And there's nowhere else
that I would rather be
Except home again and free.

Refrain:
I've been a restless girl
I've lived past half my life
On the road trying to be free
Makin' sure that no one ever needed me
Or is it that I didn't want to meet anyone at all?

So here I am again
Where I said I'd never be
Waiting for the man I love to call on me
And how strange I feel
Now the joke's on me
'Cause I'm here again
Alone again
And I guess I'm not so very free.

I sitll believe in us together - Hiyas

Lookin' back through all those years
Babe, we've gone through everything there is
We never thought that we'd come this far
But thank God above, we never walked out the door.

Yes there were times we tried to give up
But our love kept us from drifting apart
Our faith in each other was all that we needed to survive.

Chorus:
Baby, I still believe in us together
It's gonna be that way, come what may
Baby, I still believe in us together
I know that our love for each other
Will keep us together every day.

All of our friends, they tell us the same
With love alone, we'll never make it on our own
But look at us, our love is all we have
We're going strong, yes, we've proven them wrong.

We showed them all, with love we can walk tall
Just as long as we keep on believin'
There won't be any leavin'
Yes, we'll stay that way
Love will show us the way.
(Repeat Chorus)
(Instrumental)
(Repeat Chorus)

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

The ART of LETTING GO

It's over... He's gone.. WHy do we have to part while the love is still there? why do we have to suffer? why do we have to cry when someone bids goodbye? why do beginning have an end? why do we have to meet only to loone in the end?

There are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone, songs left unsing, love left unexpressed, promises left unfulfilled...

In a relationship, one of the hardest thing to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking a crystal because you'll never knew when you will be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not, they who go, feel not the pain of parting, it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left of memories of love that was meant to be.. a love that was...

At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but thats the way love goes. That's the drama, the bittersweet and the risk of falling in love. after all, nothing is constant but change. everything will eventually come to its end without knowing us when, without knowing as how, without us even knowing why. and we must forget not because we want to but we have to.

In letting go, sorrows come not as a single spy but in batallion. It seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath you take always remind you of him. it's like a stub of knife, a torture in the night. funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing, just imagine there are billions of people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty without each other..

I don't know if this is worth calling an art, but letting go entails special skills sparkle with a considerable space and times. time heal all wounds but it takes a little push on our part. acceptance plays a part. not all the wishes come true. not all love stories end with "AND THEY LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER."

Sometimes we have to part because of circumstances beyond our control. we have to cry to temporarily let go of the pains. every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusks. it's something we can't control, something we have to live up.

It's over, his gone. but life has to go on. GOODBYE DOESN'T ALWAYS MEAN FOREVER. THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A PLACE AND TIME WHERE QUESTIONS WILL BE ANSWERED, WORDS WILL BE SPOKEN, LOVE WILL BE EXPRESSED IN SOLITUDE AND PROMISES WILL BE FULFILLED..

SOMEWHERE... SOMEHOW... SOMEDAY...
Sometimes the only person who can wake us from our dreams is the person we are dreaming about...

Maybe this chapter refuses to close because it isn't finished yet. Let us always remember not to put too many conditions on love. Love in its truest essence shouldn't be bound by rules set by men. It is a gift from God and only those who are not afraid to show it will find and keep it..

...

any person who has made you miserable couldn't have possibly been the best thing that ever happened to you.. move on with your life and stop looking back..

Friday, September 5, 2008

Beautiful Flower - India Arie

This is a song for
Every girl who’s
Ever been through something
She thought she couldn’t make it through, yeah
I sing these words because
I was that girl, too
Wanting something better than this
But who do I turn to?

Now we’re moving from the darkness into the light
This is the defining moment of our lives

Cause you’re beautiful
Like a flower
More valuable
Than a diamond
You are powerful
Like a fire
You can heal the world
With your mind and
There is nothing in the world that you cannot do
When you believe in you
Who are beautiful (yeah you)
Who are brilliant (yeah you)
Who are powerful (yeah you)
Who are resilient

This is a song for
Every girl who
Feels that she is not special
Cause she don’t look like a supermodel Coke bottle
The next time the radio tells you
To shake your money-maker
Shake your head and tell them
Tell them you’re a leader

Now we’re moving from the darkness into the light
This is the defining moment of our lives

Cause you’re beautiful
Like a flower
More valuable
Than a diamond
You are powerful
Like a fire
You can heal the world
With your mind and
There is nothing in the world that you cannot do
When you believe in you
Who are beautiful (yeah you)
Who are brilliant (yeah you)
Who are powerful (yeah you)
Who are resilient (yeah you)
Who are beautiful (yeah you)
Who are brilliant (yeah you)
Who are powerful (yeah you)
Who are resilient (yeah you)

This song is for you
Yeah you
This song is for you
Yeah you
This song is for you
Yeah you
Yeah you
You are brilliant

it reminds me of something..

I’ve been spending some time
thinking i’d be alright,
don’t know if I could really make it tonight,
lie awake in the dark,
come down then I start,
thinking about you is almost breaking my heart.
I don’t know where I went wrong, or what’s going on,
baby, I fell like our love’s lost tonigt.
should I stay, should I go?
well, I really don’t know.
lately I’ve been missing you so.
Baby, you don’t understand our love lies lost
but you’re still holding my hand.
Oh and then you walk away,
just tonight, I want you to stay.
You’re turning me on,
you turn me around,
you turn me whole world upside down.
Everytime I hurt you, well it’s hurting me too.
Don’t know if I could really stay here tonight.
Tired of thinking of you,
I never think that you do,
tell me what am I supposed to do.
Well, I just wanted to say that I need you today.
Tell me it’s all gonna work out alright.
I don’t know where I should I start,
but with all of my heart,
baby let me be your lover tonight

Thursday, September 4, 2008

sad things about LOVING

1. Letting go of a person you've just learned to love
2. Reminiscing the good times you shared together
3. Shielding your heart to love somebody
4. Trying to hide what you really feel
5. Trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall
from your eyes
6. Loving a person too much
7. Giving up someone you never thought of giving
up
8. Having the right love at the wrong time
9. Taking the risk to fall in love again
10. Hiding your relationship from someone else
11. Controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend
12. Thinking of him/her every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he/she never even thinks a single thought of you...
13. Letting go, because everytime you see the person, you only fall deeper
14. Holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out
15. Falling in love with someone you didn't mean to fall in love with
16. Finding the perfect guy/girl...with only one problem--- he/she doesn't love you...the way you
want him/her to...
17. Helping the one you love "court" your friend / helping your friend "court" the one you love
18. Seeing the one you love crying for someone else
19. Waiting also hurts like hell
20. Having to hear "... I've met someone"
21. Agreeing to his/her wish to 'just be friends'.
22. Asking his/her freedom back bcoz 'he'd/she'd
be happier with him/her'
23. Asking you to 'forget that everything happened'
and be 'normal' friends again.
24. Hearing that you're treated as a little bro/sis
(ouch!)
25. Sharing his/her future plans for the guy/girl
with you.
26. You stopped being friends bcoz his gf/her bf
asked him/her to.
27. Being denied in front of people.
28. Telling you lies where he'd/she'd been when
actually, he/she was with a 'new friend' or an
'old flame' (whew!)
29. He/she told you he'd/she'd be leaving you to
return to his/her ex? the one he/she left for
you!
30. Breaking someone's heart
31 .Fighting for that one thing that would make
you happy that is, holding on to a person who can
not guarantee you his/her commitment unless
he/she fix himself/herself...then, you are left
hanging for the moment...then he/she says, time
will tell... ang labo lang niya...but you still decided
to hope in him/her and trust him/her
32. Pretending you're OK when inside you're
dying...
33. Pretending to be strong.... and recognizing
your weakness
34. Lying in bed each night, thinking of that special
person you can never have...
35. Being with someone you can't actually love...
36. Pretending you don't love a person whom you
actually love...
37. Being in love...
38. Letting go even if you really don't want to...
having no right to say you are hurting because it
was your decision
39. Seeing the person you love hurt because of
you... and not being able to help that person...
40. Having the courage to say "I LOVE YOU" to the
person you love and finding out afterwards that
things will never be the same again when he/she
doesn't treat you with the same closeness as before
41. Having to face the fact that someone is
capable of completely destroying the wall that you
have set for yourself, leaving you weak and
vulnerable
42. Admitting that you love someone despite
his/her imperfections
43. Finding out that the more you try to hate
him/her, the more you end up loving him/her,
perhaps even more than before
44. Realizing how stupid your mistakes were that
led to your break-up.
45. The thought that this guy/girl, used to really
love you and you loved him/her as well but you
didn't give enough and he/she gave up on you
46. Sharing the one you love with SOMEBODY
else....."
47. Making a promise....and realizing that when
the time has come for that promise to be
delivered....the commitment is no longer there...
48. Violating your parents' rules for that someone
that you love.
49. Leaving your long-time friend

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

destiny

there are things in life that u can't hold on forever no matter how much u fight for it. sometimes destiny isn't always gud, it becomes playful. when u met someone u learned to love, u thought that it was destiny who made your paths crossed. but what if making your paths crossed is just a part of the game that the playful destiny create? making you realize in the end that the person you thought that was destined for you wasn't really meant to stay but only destined to make you feel loved and leave you when you've already fallen....
so, so, sad.. :(


Thursday, August 28, 2008

Closing Cycles

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.
Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill. None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.
That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.
Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment." Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important. Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

running away..

running away has become a habit of mine whenever im in pain and failure is at hand. i thought that in doing so, i can forget all about those pains and the people/things that caused it. for me, that's the only way to start a new beginning, a new chapter of my life. i didn't realize that running away is not a good move. it only makes the matter more complicated than it once had been. now i know that it's not the answer or let me say i cant find the answer to all of my questions when i tend to forget the issue without facing it. for how can i start a new beginning when i dont know how the previous chapter ends? how can i make solutions and new formulas when i refused to know the problem in the first place? healing from the pains in the past is a process. it's not a one-night magic. it takes time and even years to get healed completely. and yes, i realized that i can't be totally healed if i run away, if i tend to forget the past without resolving the issues. trying to cover a deep wound with plaster and continue doing the same thing (that cuts me deeply) is not a healthy idea either for it's just a matter of minutes and the blood will soak the plaster again. i better have to let the wound be healed first then start anew. try to answer the questions and tackle the problems of the previous chapter before i can start with the next one. it's a pre-requisite. it's a process. just like in a relationship. i realized that you can't give ur all to the person ur currently being with if u still have hanging issues in the past, if the pain it brought is not yet completely healed, if u tend to disregard those questions that keep bogging in ur mind, if u try to make urself believe that ur okay, when in fact ur not, if u keep telling yourself that love has gone and u can make it without him/her, if u refuse to acknowledge the truth that despite all the wrongs that person did into ur life, u still love and need him/her. all in all, u can never love again if u are still shattered deep within. fears and doubts are still there no matter how u tried to hide it. u can never give love if hate still resides in the heart. u can never give ur whole being if you are still broken. what makes it worst is that, it's not only you who got hurt this time. there is now the other person (the new one) who doesn't know about ur past and who believes the things you want him/her to believe. you don't know that in making him/her part of your life when ur still in the mess is like pulling him/her along with you to the pit of hurts and pains. and it would be unfair to them bcoz in the first place, they have nothing to do with ur past. they only existed in the present, they did nothing but loving you... and i know that the person who got hurt the most is the one at present. the one who have no faults but just a victim of your unresolved past. he/she ended up crying and bitter. and now this person is the one who will seek for prey again.. and the cycle begins.

i know it because i have been a prey who turned out to be the predator then back being a prey... i tend to run, i tend to hide, i tend to cover it with plaster. the ending? still a failure.. but got no regrets, for through all those pains, those running away, i've encountered many good things along the way. good things to learn and to cherish. now, i dont have to run away. i must face it with a brave heart and a greater faith that God is with me in this battle.. He was, is and will be with me all through out. wla lang nako na notice.. it's Him that i need. and whenever i want to run away, i know now where to go. in a place where everything will be answered. in a place where i am sure i am safe 100% and be loved 100%.. in a place where He is calling me and always ready to give that very comforting hugs that i need...... in God's open arms.......


Saturday, June 7, 2008

Questions left unanswered

Why do we have to part while the love is still there?
Why do we have to cry when someone bids goodbye?
Why do beginnings have an end?
Why do we have to meet only to loose in the end?

There are questions left unanswered,
words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone,
songs left unsung, love left unexpressed, promise left unfulfilled.
In a relationship, one of the hardest things to
do is saying goodbye and letting go.
It is hard as breaking a crystal because you'll
never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again.
More often than not, they who go,
feel not the pain of parting. It is them who
stays behind that suffer, because they are left with
memories of love that was once meant to be.
At the beginning and at the end of a
relationship we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone,
unfair as it may seem, but that's the way love goes.
That's the bittersweet and the risk of
falling in love. After all, nothing is constant,
all changes. Everything will eventually
come to its end, without knowing when,
without us knowing why.
And we must forget not because we want to
but because we have to.
In letting go sorrows come not as a single spy
but in battalion. It seems that everywhere you go,
everything you do, every song you hear,
every turn of your head, every move of your body,
every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye,
and every breath you take always remind you of him.
It's like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night.
Funny how the world become depopulated
when only one person is missing.
Just imagine, there are four billion people on earth
and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty without the other.
I don't know if it's worth calling an art,
but letting go entails special skills
sparkled with a considerable space and time.
Time heals all wounds but it takes a little push on our part.
Acceptance plays a part. Not all wishes come true.
Not all love stories end with "and they live happily ever after"
Sometimes we have to part because of circumstances beyond our
control.
We have to suffer, if it would mean happiness for others.
We have to cry temporarily, let go of the pain.
Every beginning has its end as every dawn has its dusk.
It's something we can't control,
something we have to live up with.
It's over. He's gone. Life has to go on.
Goodbye doesn't always mean forever.
There will always be a place and time where questions will be spoken,
letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night,
songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude
and promises will be fulfilled.
Somewhere... Somehow... Someday.....

Friday, June 6, 2008

Pinoy jokes

Break muna Guys at tawa naman dyan!....... ...Regards

Subject: Pinoy jokes


Iba ang PINOY!!!!!
PINOY CONTRACTOR ABROAD

Three contractors are bidding to fix the White House fence.

One from the Philippines , another from Mexico and an American.

They go with a White House official to examine the fence.

The American contractor takes out a tape measure and does some measuring, then works some figures with a pencil. Well," he says. "I figure the job will run about $900: $400 for materials, $400 for my crew and $100 profit for me."

The Mexican contractor also does some measuring and figuring, then says, "I can do $700: $300 for materials, $300 for my crew and $100 profit for me."

The Filipino contractor doesn't measure or figure, but leans over to the White House official and whispers: "$2,700."

The official, incredulous, says, "What? You didn't even measure like the other guys! How did you come up with such a high figure? How do you expect me to consider your service with that bid??

"Easy," the Pinoy explains, "$1,000 for you, $1,000 for me and we hire the guy from Mexico ".

The next day, the Pinoy and the Mexican are working on the Fence.

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Joke
Q. What's the difference between corruption in the US and corruption in the Philippines ?

A. In the U.S. they go to jail. In the Philippines , they go to the U.S.

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Q. What`s the difference among Philippine Presidents Cory, Gloria and Erap?

A. Cory can`t tell a lie
Gloria can`t tell the truth
Erap can`t tell the difference


REPORTER: Sir, kung wala po kayong evidence, witness or suspect ano na po ang next step ninyo??
Police: DNA na...
REPORTER: sir, ano po yung DNA ???
Police: "Di Namin Alam "

"Naglalakad ang mag-ama, nakakita ng eroplano
ANAK: Tay ! Krus! Ang laking krus!
TATAY(Binatukan ang anak): Nakita mo ng krus eh! Lumuhod tayo!"

bobo1: Pare, alam mo ba tawag sa paniki na mababa ang lipad?
bobo2: hindi eh! ano ba pare?
bobo1: Lowbat pare! Lowbat!




TEACHER: Anong similarity nina Jose Rizal, Andres Bonifacio, Ninoy Aquino at Apolinario Mabini?
STUDENT: Ma'am, pagkaka-alam ko po, silang lahat ay pinanganak ng holiday!



ERAP: Soli ko tong nabili kong DVD.
FPJ: Anong problema?
ERAP: Walang picture, tsaka sound. Sayang. Suspense thriller pa yata to. Tsk, tsk...
FPJ: Anong title?
ERAP: "The Lens Cleaner"


PROMDI: Lam ko promdi lang ako kaya wag mo kong lolokohin! Bakit ganito ang kwarto ko? Maliit, wala pang kama at bintana..... ha?
ROOMBOY: Sir, nasa elevator pa lang po tayo...

Jun-Jun: Inay! Ako lang ang nakasagot sa tanong ng titser namin kanina!
Inay: Very good! Ano ba ang tanong ng titser ninyo?
Jun-Jun: "Sino ang walang assignment?"

Titser: Ano ang hugis ng mundo?
Juan: Kuwadrado po, maam!
Titser: Hindi! Ang mundo ay bilog.
Juan: Pero maam, sabi ng lolo ko, narating na niya ang APAT na sulok ng mundo. May sulok po ba ang bilog?



Boss asks sexy secretary to a dinner after overtime: Are you free tonight?
The sexy secretary replies: Sir, ha... huwag naman, FREE... Bibigyan na lang kita ng discount!


Eliseo: Sobra na talaga ang katangahan ng kumare mo. Ang akala niya, ang LAWSUIT ay uniporme ng pulis!
JoshuA: Sus! Tanga nga! Eh di ba, uniporme ng abugado yun?






Erap to Cardinal Rosales: Cards, hangga ngayon galit pa ang simbahan sa akin. This is unfair!

Cardinal Rosales: Bakit mo naman nasabi yan, Erap?

Erap: Tignan 'nyo Cards, mayroong sabado de GLORIA, mayroong Sagrado de CORAZON at mayroon ding Linggo de RAMOS, Bakit ako wala? Naging presidente din naman ako, ah.

Cardinal Rosales: O sige na nga, Erap. Para wala kanang reklamo mula ngayon sa iyo na iyang
ASS Wednesday!

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Lessons to live by

1. Do not fall in love every time you fall in bed. Learn to detach emotionally.

2. Sex does not equal commitment.

3. Do not revolve your entire life around him/her. Addiction is bad for your health!

4. Do not cling, act needy or demand. Doormats are for your feet, not for your heart.

5. It’s OK to say NO!

6. Stop talking so much. NEVER reveal everything.

7. Do not grill them or their friends for information.

8. Master the art of LISTENING.

9.Treat him/her as you would your best friend.

10. Friendship creates long term love and comes before sex.

11. FORGET about fixing your partner. IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN.

12. Your choice of partner is a reflection of who you are and who you are not!

13. Enjoy the moment first. Live in the present.

14. Don’t worry about the ex’s or start naming your future children.

15. NEVER read their journal or go through their paperwork.

16. If you have no trust, you have no relationship.

17. Allow space and freedom between you.

18. DO NOT always be available.

19. Calling frequently is a turn off and signals insecurity, neediness and control.

20. Open your eyes to lies and cheating, OR…. Close them…. Justify the bad behavior, and live with the consequences.

21. Little or no eye contact? Start walking. They won’t even notice your gone

22. Anyone preoccupied with their physical appearance and dress, usually have very little or nothing to offer from within, Look beyond the physical!

23. Never compromise your values..

24. If you OVER give, you will lose your lover her/his respect.

25. DO NOT LOSE YOUR IDENTITY.

26. If someone REALLY wants to be with you, they will be

27. State your personal rules in the very beginning or expect them to be broken.

28. If they ask to be just friends, be just that and look elsewhere for a love partner..

29. If someone wants to really be with you, they will. If they keep giving reasons for not calling or say they are extremely busy,, GET THE HINT, leave them alone.

30. Don’t ever give up your friends for him/her

31. If your partner one day leave you, be sure you have friends, money, a career and a life of your own which you never gave up. If you do not, who do you have to blame but YOURSELF!

All of us will only pass this lifetime once…. We owe it to ourselves to make the most out of it…… It’s nice to see when we look back that WE LIVED WELL & LOVED BEST!!!